Crossroads

My life is at a crossroads.

As I plan a move to the west coast, I keep wondering if I'm doing the right thing. Should I really give up the job I have now that affords me the time to write to take a new job in the industry that could potentially suck me dry of time and energy to write? Will being in LA really make a difference in my writing career? Since it seems the odds are stacked against any writer selling a spec these days, I'm thinking I need to be in CA so I can use a writing sample to land a writing assignment. But what if my writing isn't good enough yet? What if I'm not good in a room? I know I shouldn't second guess myself, but these questions linger in the back of my head.

And then, I wonder, maybe I should direct another short film, instead of moving, and if that's successful, raise the money to make a feature. It's all about making things happen and doing it yourself. I'm in a job now where I could easily raise the money to do a short. However, the thought of doing another short is scary because directing is so grueling. And what if it flops? That would just be killer.

So I'm leaning towards the relocation to La La Land. Actually, tonight I have to make two phone calls that could change everything, or nothing at all. Tonight I have to return Mr. Agent II's call (yep, he actually returned my call) and call Mr. Movie Star's producing partner to speak, hopefully, about a job opportunity. Perhaps, I should even ask the agent what he thinks my chances are of using my scripts as a writing sample to get assignment work, if I were out there. And tomorrow Raul is going to look at a temporary apartment in West Hollywood. Let's hope something good develops.